my thoughts today

After seeing so much of the current immigration policies that I am helpless to fix or understand, here are my thoughts!

Roots are important Yes! And I’m not speaking about heritage or family ‘tree’ here.

I’m talking PERSONAL ROOTS…your CORE your CENTER your SOUL!

One’s life is ‘rooted’ but those roots are NOT in STONE and are NOT stationary! They move!

People and families and friends MOVE around and they CHANGE…yes even family members change!

People die, one day you will die, that’s the nature of life…to die.

EVERYTHING CHANGES NOTHING IS PERMANENT.

Life is hard! The world around can be so heartless and cruel! We can be afraid, scared, helpless, angry, bitter and much more.  At the same time we sense/know we are lucky…not to be them! It’s a paradox. There is always someone worst off than you! This is how and where empathy and compassion come in. Times like this make us a BETTER person.

The fate of being a human being is to FEEL and to KNOW why we feel. But to be a healthy human being one must protect one’s ROOTS. We can’t fix all. We have to know what is good for us and when to let the rest fall away from us.

We cannot internalize it all! We live, we feel, but we should NOT internalize it all. We are alive BECAUSE we are unique…there is NO ONE else like you! 

We DON’T have to stay in any stage ROOTED, like a tree.

If you don’t like where you are move YOUR ROOTS and plant yourself somewhere else where you can grow…that is why you are alive…to grow!

just because

Just because...at this time in my life...it's always 'just because' and I don't have to explain a thing!

Our first real weather day of spring!

First real day of spring! 

After lunch it was 40 but the wind was high, we had to go for a walkabout on the property with clippers! A few days ago I purchase a new pair rubber garden boots, just so I could walk around in the wet areas; they worked really nice except those boots were ‘not made for walking’. They are purple in color and match my hair! There’s a lot of the property that is under water in spring and fall and by the time the water goes away everything is so over grown I can’t do anything…that’s why I wanted these boots.

First we went to the pine we planted at the end edge of the ‘decorative’ fence that separates the back field/woodland from the lawn and labyrinth. I have another garden area there; I have flower gardens everywhere. We had to trim back some bottom branches of the pine and clean out the ‘nasty’ weed growth so we can mow around that tree and to the path on the opposite side of that fence; which leads along with another path to the target range outback and the back area of pines we planted. We managed to get that cleaned out! The outer/back area of the labyrinth is next to the creek, and is encircled with pine we planted and one birch for its welcome! The front of the labyrinth is open to the lawn and faces the huge river-birch and the bon-fire area which is between the labyrinth and the side of the house! This is our peace sanctuary.

We checked the ‘spring’ garden area we planted last year and sure enough the 10 tulips we planted have spread! There are some other spring plants there (haven’t come up yet) and we are planning on planting the new yellow ones he just gave me in that same area, turning the rectangle space into a triangle, where the tip of the triangle is at the birch tree where there are holly-hocks planted. This whole spring garden is behind the garden bench, which faces the labyrinth and the veggie garden, and is a great place to read under the branches of the huge birch tree behind it! Its companion birch is directly in front of the house and has the bird feeders.

I also check the garden around the well-head that’s in the front lawn; those tulips are coming up. I also have BIG Turk lilies (that have spread), peonies, iris, daisies and black-eyed susans. We then walked across the road to check out how their new pond is doing. They have a grazing area for black angus cows. I call them the 'big black moving rocks' because we can watch them from the house; they are huge! I’ve been hearing ducks/geese over there and sure enough, there was a pair of ducks! Beautiful creatures, both the ducks and the cows!

All in all it was a wonderful first day of ‘weather’ spring!

tattoo additions

Finally, had those additions, I've wanted, on my first tattoos, completed. 

My guardian god is Thunor; that's the Anglo-Saxon for what most people know as Thor. And no he is NOT the one portrayed in comics and movies! He's the real thing! 

Two years ago I had a bracelet with a þunor's hammer tattoo. Now I have his greeting, in Anglo-Saxon (Old English)!  

Wes þú hāl þunor    

 Wassail! be you healthy and whole, þunor

When I RETURNED to my ancestral gods and goddesses of Northwest Europe, before they were forced to become Christians, I was drawn to those early tribes of the island known today as England, particularly the tribes of the Angles and Saxons. The language that we know today as Old English is Anglo-Saxon. I know several of the ancient gods and goddesses of those tribes. þunor is my protector God. 

Along with my love of them I have learned more, via my practice of yoga, about the ancient gods and goddesses of Hinduism and Buddhism. 

My other tattoo is the Sanskrit of OM...the sound of the universe! My logic of having both the OM and the Hammer is...I am ONE with the universe and if there are obstacles in my way of staying calm then I just reach for my Thor's Hammer and smash them, thereby staying calm and one with the universe!  

Over time, I've become very fond of Lakshmi, goddess of peace, harmony and plenty. I have her picture on both my computers! as well as other places. I chant her mantra, using the mala-beads (prayer beads) I made just for her. 

Om Shreem Maha Lakshmi Namaha 

to know more see these sites 

https://www.yogapedia.com/definition/9001/namaha

https://www.yogapedia.com/definition/10048/om-shreem-maha-lakshmiyei-namaha

happiness is....

new/old beginnings

I've been practicing yoga now for 20 years; 15 doing Ashtanga yoga...just one branch of many schools. For about 30 years I've studied and in some circumstances have practiced various ancient traditions and techniques from many cultures. I have favorite gods and goddesses. I have incorporated many healing techniques into my day to day life. I am a serious yoga student.

The opportunity has arrived to where I am able to stay in my home town and yoga studio to do a 200 hour yoga teacher-training course. Personally I have no desire to teach, I just want to deepen my practice and have 'it all in one place' instead of the piece-meal way I've approached many aspects of yoga. Yoga is a very deep and never-ending study. That being said...no one is ever 'finished' with their given course of study, it's a life-long pursuit! And I'm ready now to devoted 10 months of my life to this! And the path has been cleared for me!

I will be sharing things as I go along...here's my first share.

https://www.yogajournal.com/yoga-101/who-was-patanjali

https://www.pinterest.com/pin/400890804302430518/

If it doesn't nourish your soul get rid of it!

NO I can NOT do that pose! I can do parts and pieces of that pose, but not all together!

 If it doesn't nourish your soul get rid of it!

I try everyday to remember this, it's difficult at times, very difficult, but I try and I keep trying.

I've been in the process of purging various 'contacts' and sites that were/are related to 'her'; they no longer serve me (body, mind, spirit).

I had a serious case of bronchitis; being in bed for weeks kind of makes you really see what's important! Is SHE important to me? Do I really 'miss' all those blogs posts I wrote? What do you think?

I knew long ago that I NEEDED to purge her from my life. I had already taken care of her dirty deeds and words against me and family already. SHE is paying the price of what she DID. I just needed to wrap it all up. I NEEDED to nourish my soul and well...the universe took control and made it happen!

Then along came SOMEONE, in HER world sphere, that took offense over something I had said, and whom Ruth and I never had any dealings with. Well for that 'someone's' backstabbing she recently had some serious feet issues!

KARMA BABY! NEVER EVER think that your dirty deeds will go unnoticed and rewarded accordingly!

So for all those whiners out there...think about all your bad luck and ill health! Perhaps you need to get rid of what does NOT nourish your soul.

sacred energy

hair color, tattoos and yoga

Well...like the hair coloring?? I do!

I decided in November to give PURPLE a try, was a bit conservative, but the reactions I got, plus the fact that I loved it, said...GO OF IT.

So I did, with MORE color! Really when the light is just right...it's dazzling!
Gray and purple are a great combination! It's all about TIMING.

Hopefully in a couple of weeks, when the weather settles down, I'll get that appointment to have some additions placed on my two tattoos I had done 2 years ago. Again, it's all about TIMING! It took me some time to decide what I wanted as tattoos and NOW its taken me time to KNOW what those additions will be! Need to get them soon because...

In a month I'll be doing, for a year, advance yoga teacher training! More on that later...

It's all about me!

a bit about HER

Yep, it’s ALL ABOUT ME. It’s always been about me and my family.

You know, it’s amazing how the cosmos, the Fates, the Wryd Sisters, the Gods, and the Goddesses work their magic! Just when the time is ready EVERYTHING falls into place; be it in the beginning or at the end!

It was NEVER about her! You know who I mean. 

Be it ‘J’ or ‘D’ or my favorite ‘the nameless one’…it was NEVER about her! 

It WAS always about her words and deeds and her BETRAYAL to FAMILY HONOR. 

She dared to write, three times, a lying book, exposing and exploiting my parents and family. To which, as siblings, we answered her lies with the truth. We exposed her! We dealt her the death blow that destroyed her ‘dream’; a best-seller book, a movie of her life, a world-wide career on the adoption reform circuit at book signings and conventions! She’s a no-body! 

She was damaged, since in-vitro, something she refuses to accept. She was only born into ‘our’ family like everyone else is…an ACCIDENT OF BIOLOGY, just because we are born of the same parents does NOT make us family. There are forces in the universe that are beyond the reasoning and powers of humans!

Because of our mother’s death and other circumstances, she was given up into adoption. Those parents were like many people ‘just not perfect enough’; but no one gets to pick their parents, birth or adopted. When she was found, by siblings, she systematically destroyed every relationship; no one wanted to be around her. Then she spent a life-time ‘getting even’, with the book! THAT is what brought me and other siblings OUT to deal with HER, and deal with her we did! Nine years of exposing her lies and deeds!

A couple of years ago, I was beginning to note that I was getting BORED with HER and her agenda and all the crying, whining, anger, by her and other adoptees and all the NEGATIVE activities done by her, and other adoptees or ‘activists’, to people who WANTED to adopt. I realized that the utopia that SHE and the others want WILL NEVER be…ADOPTION will always be. I realized that SHE will never GET IT and will always be an angry person beating that ‘dead horse’.

I also noted that I was beginning to send out ‘messages’ to the cosmos and various NEW things were showing themselves to me! The world is VAST; more on that later…

There are many of you out there that are wondering; where are those blogs that I and Ruth had!

Simple truth; just like it was TIME for those blogs to appear and it was TIME for them to be gone! The number nine (9) is a whole number; completion. And so our blogs were completed, they are archived! They and we did the job that was intended; to set the records correct, name and correct her lies and expose her for what she is. Our tasks were completed, our job was done and that’s all that matters.

We have lives! It’s time to live the life YOU WERE GIVEN and not some fantasy life that will never materialize. 

a new beginning!

Today is my BIRTHDAY...
happy birthday to ME!!!
perfect day to start a NEW blog
I'm on the cusp of many NEW things,
letting go of old junk